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Self control is crucial…

I spent the afternoon sitting in my apartment yesterday, snowed in.  Just had my nails done.  I made fresh tomato soup from 2 ripe tomatoes, some onion, garlic, cayenne, salt and pepper - blended in a blender and then heated on the stove.  It was delicious and totally fat free. At that moment I was satiated.

A few hours later the cravings kicked in.  I was out of cigarettes and had to run to the corner store to get some.  Trekking through a foot of snow and slush I walked to the store, the store where my cravings get fed.  I walked past the soda, chips, and cookies, arriving at the frozen foods fridge.  I picked up the mini red baron pizza (my nemesis) and looked at the nutrition info.  I was horrified.  480 calories for ONE and too many fat grams to mention.  I told myself, “you will feel terrible if you get these.  You have plenty of groceries - well fruits and veggies, just go home and eat those, that is if you’re really that hungry.”  I put them back I walked to the front bought my cigs and left. The fat girl behind the counter chomped on a taquito and asked me why I didn’t get the pizza. 

I said, “it’s a want not a need.”

She replied with her mouth partially full, “it’s food, you need food.” 

I said, “I will never need that kind of food.”

Little did she know her gross appearance reinforced why I don’t want to eat that shit.  I don’t want to be fat, like her.  Nor do I consider food a NEED.  It’s a luxury and I am treating it that way from now on. 

Walking home I felt triumphant.  I did have self control and I instilled it!  No help from anyone.

I wanted to share this because we all have an inner warrior, fighting inside us to be better, to become the best person that we can be.  We may not always have a friend by our side for support late at night.  Sometimes we have to call on our inner warrior to fight for us and keep us on track - I am embracing that warrior now and so can you.

Best part is, I woke up this morning feeling lighter, and my stomach a bit flatter.  I weighed and like magic lost another 2.2 lbs. - proof that not giving in is always worth it.

onehundreadlbs asked: hi im trying to lose weight and i was wondering if u have any advice?
your blog is a real inspiration.

Hey, I have tons of advice but I don’t know what you need to know.  I am glad to hear that my blog inspires you <3 Feel free to ask away and I will follow you!  My recent post might be rather helpful check it out.

It’s working and it’s worth it!

Lost 2.2 lbs. so far with juicing and eating smaller portions.  I have to comment on some things I have been seeing here: many of you post what you’re eating and I gotta tell you even if you consume a limited amount of calories say 500 (which is really unhealthy and unnecessary) don’t let 200-300 of those calories be from MAC N CHEESE!!!  That is setting yourself up for real trouble…your body will turn all that shit food into fat, without question.  You’d be better off eating 1200-1500 calories a day from veggies and fruit with 100g of egg whites, chicken, or lean beef 2x per day - while cutting out sugar and added fats/oils from dressings, sauces, sweets, and dairy.  You don’t have to take my advice but eating RIGHT is critical to losing weight and keeping it off.  Additionally, although it should be obvious, you have to exercise…I enjoy dancing (rigorously) for 1.5-2 hours versus jogging.  Or even going for a brisk walk.  I don’t want to preach, however, it just grosses me out to think that some people are only consuming coffee, 2 mini cookies, and 1/2 cup of mac n cheese throughout their day.  That just makes no sense.  Your body needs nutrients and besides, most veggies and fruits boost your metabolism.  You may think I am crazy to consume “so many” calories but they are good calories from good, healthy foods, and I am living proof that you can lose weight the healthy way.

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That’s what I need right now. After a day of clothes shopping and actually contemplating asking the cute lesbian employee if they had a certain dress in an XL (OMFG) I was thrust into a reality I was not prepared for.  The shop where everything always fit me before, is now a shop I can’t shop in until I lose some inches!  You know there is a problem if you all end up buying when you go shopping is accessories and shoes!  So I returned home with a couple sweaters, one dress, accessories and shoes LOL. 

Then I went grocery shopping.  I made a list and stuck to it.  I felt great walking around the store looking in other people’s carts to see frozen pizza, potato chips, hot pockets, soda, cookies, cake, white breads etc… and then to look at them and realize how true it is, that you ARE what you eat, you will get fat if you eat like that, period.  My cart was overflowing with veggies, fruits, and a sparse selection of very lean/low cal meats (I love Laura’s organic 4% fat ground sirloin).  I did buy a loaf of high fiber bread but plan to only eat that at lunchtime.  As for breakfast it’s juice/water/coffee and dinner juice and possibly a salad.  With my Juiceman II I will shed off the el bees (lbs.) like no one’s business.  I am also committing to riding my bike at my lunch hour for at least 30 minutes (on my indoor trainer - best purchase ever) - and only eating 1/2 my usual portions (1/2 a sandwich vs. a whole one and cucumbers instead of chips!) leaves me ample time to do this.  I am going to take some Before photos tonight and post them so stay tuned!